In My Mind (HP Fic)

[Jellybaybee]

okay, i don't know if i'll post all of this cos its reel long, but i'll post a few chapters and you can tell me what you think and if you want me to continue to post it, k?


Chapter 1 The Beginning

Godric’s Hollow, 31st October 1981 (A/N don’t know exact date, soz)

"Lily, its him, take Harry and run!!" James yelled, pushing Lily from the room. She ran up the stairs, clutching Harry to her chest. Behind her, she heard a bang, saw a burst of light and heard a terrible high pitched laughter. She didn’t look back.

She stumbled into the nursery and slammed the door. She could hear him climbing the stairs as she struggled with the catch on the window. The door burst open and she grabbed Harry and held him.

"Stand aside silly girl" he said.

"No!! Take me instead! Not Harry, please!" she pleaded desperately

"Stand aside-"

"No! Please, not Harry-"

"Avada Kedavra"

Lily fully expected to die right there. She closed her eyes and felt herself fall to the ground. Yet she was still there, still breathing. The man certainly seemed to assume she was dead. He pointed his wand at Harry, Lily struggled to stop him but couldn’t move-

"Avada Kedavra"

Lily passed out. Vaguely around her she heard a howl of pain, an electrifying surge of power, then voices. She could hear them. Apparently, they all thought her dead. She heard Dumbledore, Sirius…….

They left her there. Had they not noticed her?

Suddenly she was being dragged away from the burning wreckage, away from Harry, she tried to cry out but the person just made soothing noises. The voice was unfamiliar. They were far away.

The person sat her upright and tried to see if she still had a pulse.

"Huh…..James…..Harry…" said Lily, it was the best she could do.

"No," said the voice quietly, " You will never know who I am.. I am a Death Eater. Everyone believes you to be dead, it will stay that way."

"Why?" Lily said hoarsely, her eyes still closed.

"The Dark Lord must never know you survived. Never. He is gone for now, but he will be back. He cannot know you also survived."

"Also?!" said Lily, louder than she had spoken in the last few hours.

"One other member of your family also survived. You will never see them."

"You can’t, I have to see them!!" Lily struggled to get up.

"No harm will come of you. You will be kept under the Imperius Curse"

"No, I need to-"

"Imperio!"

[Jellybaybee]

Okay, i'm just gonna post a few more to get to the proper story.

Chapter 2 Hearing Voices

So that was life for Lily. She knew nothing of where she was, who she was or what year it was. The Death Eater was true to his word, he had never harmed her, but she did not know who he was or why he saved her. Not that she cared. All that she ever knew was the blissful floaty feeling of the curse, she was told when to sleep, when to wake and what to eat. She never left the place she was being held, if anyone saw her it would cause trouble.

15 years passed . Lily knew nothing of this until one day whilst she was following her instructions to eat.

Eat your meal Lily.

A sudden familiar voice awoke in her mind.

Why though? I’m really not hungry.

Eat Lily, do not question.

But I really don’t feel li-

The voice shook and died.

Eat the meal Lily.

Lily ate.

Nothing was said of this. The Death Eater seemed to not think it of any importance. Lily heard nothing of the voice until one night in late July.

She was sleeping in her room when her eyes snapped open.

I’m Lily Potter. I live in Godric’s Hollow with my husband, James and my son, Harry. She realised she was thinking this. She knew who she was.

The voice awoke in her mind:

That’s right Lil’s.

Hey, who the hell are you? Thought Lily, greatly enjoying being able to actually think again.

You already know Lily, said the voice.

Do I?

Course you do.

"I’m Lily Potter," exclaimed Lily, to the empty room.

There you are, you’ve already got half of it, said the voice.

James?!

Too right! Good job Lils!

Why are you in my mind James? Why aren’t you here?

I can’t be there, it’s not my choice.

Are you really there? Have I just not spoken for a long time and my mind’s making people up?

I’m here.

But why-

She stopped thinking, the peaceful calm swept over her again. James was gone.

[Jellybaybee]

And here's the last bit i'm gonna post for now.

Chapter 3 Breakin Free

It happened one evening in August. Lily was sitting silently on her bed, not thinking or talking. The Death Eater checked on her then went to his own bed. Lily sat in silence for several minutes before remembering.
I AM Lily Potter, I am Lily Potter, I am, I am, I am!!

James voice awoke.
Okay, okay!! I get the message!!

I’m just enjoying my freedom of thought!

Yeah, well, you have something more important to use your newly discovered thought power on, listen closely.
When do I not?!

Don’t get smart with me Lils!!

Ooh, your one to talk!!

Just listen okay?! Do you remember what happened around 15years ago on Halloween?

Whoah James, that’s a long time, I mean, I’ve been brainwashed since then!

Lily, this is important to both of us, but I can’t be there in person, think, please, try to remember!

Lily thought. It was hard. The pro-longed periods under the Imperius Curse had blurred what little memories she had. Her memories of that night were confused and jumbled to start with anyway.

Um…15 years ago, Halloween….Light, a big flash of light, laughter, Ha-har-HARRY!

The memories sped into Lily’s mind as if someone was pouring them in. James dead, Harry, Voldemort gone, people, lots of people moving around her. Harry, Harry, Harry.
James, they all knew I was there, Sirius looked straight in my face godammit!! How come no one did anything? How could they just leave me?

Lily, no one but you and Harry have ever survived the killing curse, they all thought you were gone. I saw Sirius that night, but from quite a different view point to you and he was a wreck. He probably didn’t even look that closely.
Oh my god, I just remembered something, they took Harry! Hagrid did! We have to find him!

That’s what I’m talking to you for. You probably don’t remember the way to the place you are staying as you were under the curse at the time. I was there with you however and remember the way out. Look to your right. There is a window. It has never been boarded up because the Death Eater thought you would not break through the curse. Look out of that window.

Lily quietly walked towards the window, some feet below was a small wooden shed.

I’ve got to jump on the shed right?

Got it in one Lils! Go now!

Lily stepped up onto the window ledge. She swung her legs over the edge and managed to get her feet on the roof of the shed.

Jump off the roof Lils, I’ve got the Death Eater covered, he’s sleeping like a baby!

Lily looked apprehensively over the edge, took a deep breath and hopped neatly onto the ground.

Good Lily! Right get as far away from there as you can , go east until you reach the road.

Lily set off at a run, breathing in the night air and listening to the animals. She also thought about Harry, about what he would look like now, he should be about 16. Lily remembered what James had looked like at 16, he had still been a scrawny, immature-

Oi!! I can hear that!!

Lily grinned. I just was saying that’s what you looked like at 16, you got mildly better looking-

Ha!
James what does Harry look like now?

I don’t quite know. I have been sort of ‘living through you’ , not that you’ve done much in the last 15years-
Hey! I didn’t have much choice!

Anyway as I was saying, I have only ever seen him once, the night he got his letter, it was amazing Lils!!
I should have been there. Who was there?

Um, dear Petunia and Vernon-
WHAT?! They were the only people there the night he got his letter?! I bet they were reeeely unimpressed!

Yeah, they- hey Lily, watch where your going, you’ve got to the road!
Lily looked around. A motorway stretched in front of her, a town on her right.
Where am I meant to be going James?
Harry will be taking the Hogwarts express the day after tomorrow. We need to take it with him, which means we have to get into London.
Well, were are we now?
Just outside London. I think we should find somewhere for you to sleep for tonight. Your exhausted. There is a deserted warehouse a few yards to your right, sleep there, nothing will hurt you, I’ll be there.
Lily walked along the road a little way and found the warehouse. She went inside, it was dark smelly and big.
Ooh look James, it’s a little better than our house!!
I wouldn’t be sarky, you haven’t seen our house now have you?
What have they done to our house?!
Well, its not so much a house as a crater with a plaque sticking out of it.
Ooh, we got a plaque? They must really like us!
How can they not?
I’m going to sleep now, night James.
Night, Lily.

[Jellybaybee]

okay, i can't be bothered to wait, i'm just gonna post maybe.... two more? Doesn't anyone want me to continue?

[Jellybaybee]

god, i'm sooo bored.

Chapter 4 Finding hope.

Lily awoke the next morning terrified. She was alone in a dark warehouse on the outskirts of London.

She had just started to panic when James spoke:

Lily, your not panicking are you?

Why yes, how nice of you to realise @$$h*le! What’s your plan for today then?

Well, I wanted to get you to the Leaky Cauldron, but the trouble is, your rather recognisable.

Why does that matter?

Because the entire wizarding world believes you to be dead, that could cause some major problems if you met anyone!

I suppose so, so what we gonna do then?

James appeared to think for a moment.

We’ll sort that when we get you there. Our son is way more important than worrying about being seen!

Right, I want you to ride the…..er…..subway, d’ya call it?….anyway I want you to get on one of those to London. This town is mainly muggle so it shouldn’t cause a problem.

Lily set off into the centre of the muggle town. It was weird thinking, feeling, seeing and hearing again after 15 years of living without any of them. Since she was muggle born, she found it very simple to take the subway to London.


When she got into the centre of London, she had to ask James where to go.

James, we’re going to the Leaky Cauldron right?

Yep, its down the road to your right.

Lily set off down the road and found a dingy old pub set back from the road.

James, how am I gonna do this? You said I’m recognisable, how am I going to manage to get into a crowded pub full of wizards?

Er….. I’ve got it!! A shawl! You know there are loads of freaks in there with shawls on, you won’t stand out and it’ll cover your oh-so-recognisable hair!

Oi! Watch it James, although that’s a good idea. What are we gonna do about money to pay for a room, I haven’t got our Gringott’s key!

Hmmm, I suppose Harry must have it, oh well, next morning we’ll get out of there quickly so you don’t have to pay.

Right.

Lily pulled her scarf over her head and checked her reflection in a window. It seemed to cover her hair pretty well. She turned away and marched up to the door of the pub, pulled it open and stepped inside. For a moment, there was a suspicious silence, then everyone returned back to their conversations .Lily breathed a sigh of relief and walked up to the till.

"Er.." Lily said, her voice was hoarse from not using it much in 15 years and it served well to disguise her even further, "I’ll be needing a single bed room for the night."

The man behind the bar peered at her and she was suddenly very conscious of how damn green her eyes were. She wiggled her shoulders slightly so that the scarf would cover more of her face.

"Yerse, well, room 15’s free I think, that’ll be 5 galleons" said the man, still peering at her.

Lily was suddenly struck by a bright idea. She leaned over the bar and said to the man in what she hoped was a furtive tone of voice, "I’m on official Ministry Business, their paying my expenses."

The man looked at her and nodded .Suddenly , Lily saw a copy of the Daily Prophet on the bar with the headline ‘Potter Speaks Out, What the Ministry Should Have Told Us’<br>
"Er, can I take this?" she asked, pointing at the paper, the man nodded, "Thanks, I’ll make my own way up to the room."

She went up the narrow stairs, found room 15 and went inside.

"Ooh, this is nice ay James." She said out loud as she saw the bathroom had a shower.

Damn it Lily, talk to me inside your head, what if people hear you? They’re suspicious already! Said James.

Whoops sorry, I’m gonna read this paper now, its got our name on it!

Lily looked down at the paper, it read ‘Potter Speaks Out ; What The Ministry Should Have Told Us’<br>
She skimmed through it quickly and picked out a few choice phrases to tell James.

Ooh, he’s ‘The Boy Who Lived’ I should get a name like that. God, he sounds a bit like you James, injuring himself all the time!

No! He’s never been seriously hurt has he?

Um… he fell 50 feet off a broom once, does that classify as serious?

Yeah, it bloody does! What an irresponsible pratt!

Hey cut him some slack, it says there were dementors there.

Oh, sorry son!

James, I’m gonna go to sleep now, we have to be up early to get the train.

Sleep well Lil’s, Love you.

Love you too.

[Jellybaybee]

go on, tell me, please? Lily meets Harry next chapter... if you want me to post it *sits in corner sucking thumb like the 10 year old her 'inner child' is*

[Jellybaybee]

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I swear! Thats all!

[Jellybaybee]

okay, i'm bored STILL and so am going to post more.

Chapter 5 The Train



Lily awoke early the next morning, buzzing with excitement. She showered quickly and washed her hair so that it shone.

Looking good Lils, said James.

Cheers hun, I’ve got to look nice, I’m getting my baby back!

I’m excited too, though I’m sad I won’t actually be there, I miss him horribly.

I know you do.

At 9.00, Lily had to pull the shawl quickly over her head again when the man brought up breakfast on a tray. He looked at her suspiciously again which made her even more eager to leave. She wolfed down the food, left a note on the table saying that the Ministry would pay and left quietly whilst the man was washing dishes in the kitchen. She talked to James in her head as she strode along the road towards King’s Cross.

Here we come Harry!

Lily, when we get on the train, you can’t just walk up to him and introduce yourself as his mother, it’ll scare him, he thinks your dead.

I know that, I just have missed him so much, you and him were the last thoughts I had when I thought I was going to die.

It was the same for me, only obviously, I did die.

Lily marched into the train station and pulled the scarf tighter around her face. She could see several families with owls and cats in baskets ; they were obviously going to Hogwarts. She reached the barrier between platforms 9 and 10, looked nervously around her before running through the barrier and onto the Hogwarts platform with the scarlet train in the middle of it.

The platform was already very busy with students and their families.

James, were should I sit on the train? Won’t they wonder what the hell I’m doing there?

Well, if Harry’s anything like me he’ll be sitting in the very end compartment. If they ask you what your doing there, say you’re a new teacher. And try not to make eye contact with them, his eyes are very like yours.
Okay. What’ll I do when I get to Hogwarts? Dumbledore’s bound to know its me!
We’ll tell him the truth, he’ll be delighted to have you back!
Lily got on the train and went to the end compartment. Two people were already there. One girl with red hair and blue eyes and another with rather bushy brown hair and brown eyes . They looked at her when she entered.
James, she thought urgently, what do I call myself?
Just make something up, he said back.
"Hi," Lily said, holding out her hand to each of them in turn, "I’m Professor L. Patter-er-son, yeah, Professor L. Patterson."
"Hiya," said the bushy haired girl, "I’m Hermione Granger."
"And I’m Ginny Weasley" said the red head.
Lily nodded at both of them then said , "Can I sit in here? The rest of the trains mental!"
Hermione nodded then said, "Sure, we’re just waiting for Harry and Ron."
"Harry?!" said Lily exciteably, "Are you his friends? How long have you known him?"
"Er… Harry yes, we are his friends, I’ve known him since first year and Ginny’s known him since second," said Hermione, looking suspicious.
"So he’s got friends then? Is he good in lessons? What about Defence against the Dark Arts-" Lily broke off, the door to the compartment had slid open. First, a gangly red haired boy walked in followed by a slightly shorter, scruffy black haired boy with shining green eyes and a scar on his forehead.
Her Son. She heard James gasp in her head.
"Hi" said Harry, seeing Lily sitting in the corner, "I’m Harry Potter."
"I know," said Lily, resisting the urge to hug him and never let go, "I’m….er…..Professor…er L. Patterson."
"Cool, you look a bit young for a teacher, most of them are over about 500years old, and you look distinctly younger than that!" said Harry, his eyes shining.
Lily laughed, her eyes shining right back at him, "No, I think I’m around 35."
"Er.. ‘you think’ your around 35?" said Harry, looking confused. He and Ron sat down opposite Lily.
"Well, I was about 20 last time I counted!" said Lily, which was true, but did not seem to reassure Harry.
The compartment door slid open again. A short dumpy sort of boy came in, holding a stunted cactus in a pot.
"Hi Neville!" said Lily, recognising the face of her friend Alice Longbottom in the boy.
"Er…hi, how did you know my name?" said Neville, looking scared.
"Oh, I know your parents!" said Lily brightly. Everyone around her exchanged uncomfortable glances.
"Er, you ‘know’ them? I didn’t think they were sort of in the position to make new friends." Said Neville, looking uncomfortable.
"I’m not a new friend, I’m an old one. What d’ya mean ‘not in the position’?" said Lily frowning.
"Don’t you- don’t you know?" said Neville in a small voice.
"Know what?"
"My parents… they were… ahhem, tortured into insanity by Death Eaters," Neville said very quickly.
Lily looked startled. "When?!"
"Erm… about 14 years ago"
Lily clapped a hand to her mouth, they saw her blink back tears although they could not see her eyes properly.
"Did- did you know them well?" said Neville uncertainly.
"Very well. God alots changed since I’ve not been here. Alice and I gave birth at around the same time." As she said the last part she tried very hard not to look at Harry who noticed her struggling.
"How’s the Mimbulus Mimbletonia Neville?" said Harry, trying to change subject.
"Oh, its doing really well, its defense systems a bit more sophisticated now, look!" before anyone could stop him, Neville had used his wand to shoot sparks at the plant which promptly swelled and sprayed stinksap everywhere. Neville groaned , "Sorry people, I really thought I’d got the-" he stopped suddenly. Everyone turned to look at Lily. She’d taken off the scarf because of the stinksap and shook out her red hair. She noticed the sudden silence and looked around at them.
"Oh-my-god." Breathed Hermione.
"sh*t!" said Lily, realising her mistake. She jumped up and ran from the compartment.

[PuppyDawg]

Oh, I love it! Please write more, I am hooked! I love how James and Lilly are constantly quarrwling. "Does falling 50 feet from a broom count as dangerous?" "I bloody hell does!" Or something like that... LOL!

[¡Snowy!]

i love this, its awesome!!!

[seeker1214]

hahaha it is really good!...excellant...please carry on!

[Jellybaybee]

YAY! I have reply's!

Chapter 6

Lily sprinted past them and ran into the toilet at the end of the carriage.

Damn it Lily! Said James in her head.

Oh god, what’ll we do James?

We’ve gotta face them, come on Lils, it’ll be better once he knows.

Building up all her courage, Lily strode out of the bathroom and marched back to the compartment she had just left. Taking a deep breath, she slid the door open.

They all turned to look at her, their faces white.

"I expect you wondering-" Lily began,

"Who the hell you are? Yeah we were sort of wondering that!!" said Harry, anger in his face.

Lily took a step backwards at the harshness of his voice. Hermione stood up and put her hand on Harry’s shoulder.

"Calm down Harry, it might be a coincidence." She said soothingly.

"Oh yeah, big coincidence!" said Harry sarcastically, "A woman turns up on the train who happens to have my exact eyes, look exactly like my mother and calls herself L.Patterson!"

"Harry, please, just listen-"

"This is a really sick joke" he spat at Lily, "My mothers dead, she died, I was there, I heard the bleeding screaming for christ’s sake!"

"But I can remember exactly what I said!" said Lily urgently, "Erm… Not Harry, Kill me instead-"

"Exactly, he did kill her, which means you CANNOT be my mother!" cut in Harry.

"But I survived too, a death eater put me under the imperius curse-"

"Ooh, what a kind, forgiving death eater, that doesn’t fit in with my experience’s with them!"

"But it happened, and then your dad started talking to me, got me to break through the curse-"

"NOW YOU’RE GOING TO FAR!" yelled Harry.

Lily? Said James in her head, Lily, let me speak to him.

There was silence for a moment before Lily heard James say in Harry’s head "Harry? Its James, please listen to your mom, she has the chance to be with you again and I don’t, don’t waste it."

Harry stumbled backwards and sank onto the seat, shaking.

Everyone looked from him to Lily.

"Harry mate, maybe you should listen to her, she could be telling the truth, you said it yourself, the likenesses are so similar" said Ron uncertainly.

"How are you doing that? Making him talk in my head?" Harry said to Lily.

"I’m not doing it, he is," said Lily softly.

"But he’s…. dead."

"Yes but he’s still with us, he got me away from the Death Eater didn’t he?"

Harry looked at her, "Death Eater?"

"Oh, I should tell you the full story," Lily took a tentative step towards Harry and sat down next to him, all the time trying to stop herself from hugging him senseless.

Harry nodded.

"Well my memories of what happened are a little blurry, but I should think they’re a little better than yours. Am I right?"

Harry looked carefully to the left of her, avoiding her scarily familiar eyes, "I don’t remember very much. People always ask me what I remember but the truth is I only remember- screaming….. and then green light"

"Well, I think I can elaborate on that a little," said Lily, moving her head slightly to give him no choice but to look her in the eye, "I remember James telling me to take you and run. When I got to the top of the stairs- I saw a flash of light from behind me, I- I didn’t turn round. I got to the nursery and closed the door. I could hear him climbing the stairs. I tried to open the window but couldn’t. He came in , I pleaded. He performed the killing curse on me and I thought I was dead. But I wasn’t, I just lay there, completely still. I heard him try to kill you. I heard him scream then this big surge of power went through the house , knocking it down around us. I think I passed out for a few hours."

" Then I heard people, I vaguely saw Dumbledore, Sirius looked me straight in the face, but they all left me there, I think they thought I was dead but I can’t understand why they left me there. Then, without warning I was dragged away from the scene by a man who told me he was a Death Eater. He said that Voldemort could never know that I also survived. He placed me under the Imperius Curse and kept me bewitched for 15 years until your dad helped me break through it. He helped me escape and got me to London where I stayed in the Leaky cauldron, I kept myself covered with the scarf and, since you have our Gringott’s key, told them that the Ministry would foot the bill."

Everyone stared at her. Harry didn’t say anything. Suddenly, a voice echoed through the train,

"We are now approaching Hogsmeade, please change into your robes if you have not already done so."

"Do you believe me?" said Lily, staring straight into his eyes.

Harry appeared to be thinking.

"I think so but I would like Dumbledore to confirm it. He remembers you better than I do," he said finally.

"Oh, okay then. Where do you think I should go when we get there? Do you think I should wait until after the feast or-" started Lily.

"Erm, I think Professor Dumbledore would say this is a little more important than the feast." Said Ron, with a trace of a grin.

"Oh, right, okay!" said Lily.

The train began to slow, Harry and his friends pulled their robes on over their clothes and collected up their animals. Finally it stopped and they climbed off, Lily walking close behind them.

Going okay don’t ya think James? Lily asked him.

Yeah, well done Lily! As soon as Dumbledore see’s you, he’ll confirm your telling the truth, he’ll know your telling the truth.

Thanks!

They took the horse-less carriages too the castle, as they got off, Lily pulled the scarf around her face again. As they entered the great hall, there was much curious muttering. Harry and Lily had no doubts as to what it was about. Who was that mysterious woman with Harry Potter?

Just as Lily was about to sit down at the Gryffindor table with Harry, James spoke in her head:

No Lily, go see Dumbledore, Now!

Lily stood up nervously and walked to the staff table, the scarf still covering her face. There was silence in the room, every head turned to watch her.

She reached the table and stood in front of Dumbledore. Every member of staff leaned over to look down the table at her. Silence for a few moment and then,

"Albus, I- er really need to speak to you."

Dumbledore looked at her. There had only ever been two people in the world who used to call him Albus.

" Of course Miss-?"

"Its Mrs, sir, not Miss," she lowered her voice, but what she said next still carried across the hall, "Mrs Lily Potter."

YAY! (That isn't in the story, thats just me!)

[seeker1214]

WOW...continue please!...haha dont stop now!

[Jellybaybee]

Here's a bit more... well, i say a 'bit' but it aint that small...

The hall went, if possible even more silent. They had good reason, Lily Potter? She was dead, they all knew it, yet here was this woman, claiming to be her in front of no-less than Albus Dumbledore.

Gradually, every gaze began to move to Harry, who was silent.

The staff seemed in turmoil, Prof. McGonnagal seemed unable to speak and on the verge of tears. Tiny Professor Flitwick was in already crying.

Dumbledore however seemed scarily calm. He swallowed then reached out with one long fingered hand and pulled the scarf from Lily’s face.

The hall gasped. Long red hair appeared from under the scarf, fanning out behind her. Dumbledore and the rest of the staff could see Lily’s green eyes twinkling in the candlelight.

"I knew there would be a bit of fuss but I think this is a bit much!" said Lily, half laughing . She spun around to look at the sea of open mouthed, shocked face’s. Their shock became more prenounced.

Gazes flicked from Lily to Harry, comparing their eyes.

"Lily?"

Lily turned back to Dumbledore, he looked just as shocked as everybody else. Professor McGonagall was actually sobbing now, not bothering to muffle it.

"I just need you to confirm who I am, " said Lily, "I’ve met Harry but he- he said he didn’t remember me well enough to believe it was me. Albus, you know it’s me right?"

Dumbledore shook his head slightly, seemingly to clear it, then said, "You’ve spoken to Harry?"

"Oh yes, he was the reason I was able to break through the Imperius curse, well, him and James." Said Lily, glancing over her shoulder at Harry, trying to see whether he was still there or not.

"We- we saw your body Lily, yours and James’s."

"I don’t deny, you saw me. I wasn’t dead though. I don’t really know why you didn’t see I was alive, I was angry for a long time about that, well when I could remember it. You," she looked at her feet and swallowed, "You did see James though. He’s dead, he told me."

"He told you?!"

"I told you I broke through he curse because of him, well he’s been speaking in my head, I think its him, I believe what he said. Harry heard him, didn’t you Harry?" she turned to Harry, her eyes pleading with him.

He stood up slowly and walked towards the front table. When he got there, he cleared his throat and said quietly, "It certainly seemed like him Professor."

"Merlins beard," muttered Dumbledore, "You said something about a curse Lily, I think it would be best if you explained what happened, er, maybe in private." His eyes swept the Hall, not one of the students were eating, just staring at the front.

"If you’d both like to accompany me to my office," he said, then he seemed to realise something, "Minerva, Professor Flitwick, could you come to, you knew Lily best. And, Hagrid, could you also accompany us? After all, you went to Godric’s Hollow that night also."

The shocked members of staff, Dumbledore, Lily and Harry walked to his office in stunned silence.

As soon as they were all settled in a chair, Dumbledore looked over the top of his glasses at Lily.

"Could you please tell us every detail of what happened?"

And so, Lily recounted the story, every detail she could remember, right from James telling her to flee, James’s voice awaking in her head, and arriving in the hall that night.

When she finished, she looked at Harry and was horrified to see he was crying. Panicking, she reached out and pulled him into a hug. Harry froze, then breathed in her familiar sweet scent, so this is what it was like to be hugged by a mother. And he remembered her.

"Lily, what do you mean James is ‘talking’ to you?" said Dumbledore suddenly.

She released Harry, who reached out and held her hand. Smiling, she turned to Dumbledore and said,

"I don’t know, I just know its him."

Dumbledore stood up and went over to a cabinet, where he took out the Pensieve. He brought it back to the desk and set it down,

"Lily, I trust you know how to use a Pensieve?"

Lily smiled, "Yes Albus, I do."

"Good, could you put one of your own memories of James talking to you in the Pensieve for us?"

Lily smiled then said, "Of course, but I no longer have a wand, I assume it was destroyed in the blast."

Dumbledore handed her his own wand. She took it, closed her eyes, put the wand tip to her forehead and pulled it away again, placing the strand of silver thought in the Pensieve. She handed the wand back to Dumbledore who took it, then said,

"May we have permission to listen to it?"

Lily smiled and nodded. Dumbledore placed the wand in the silver liquid and pulled out one of the strands. Suddenly, James voice echoed around the room :

"WE’LL SORT THAT WHEN WE GET YOU THERE. OUR SON IS WAY MORE IMPORTANT THAN WORRYING ABOUT BEING SEEN!"

Harry’s mouth dropped open. So did Mcgonagall’s and Flitwicks. Hagrid’s didn’t, he was too busy crying into his moleskin coat.

Yay!! I think they believe us Lily!! Exclaimed James in her mind.

" We need to show you something Lily," said Dumbledore gravely, which had not been what she’d been expecting to hear at all.

He put the wand in the pensieve again, bought out another silver strand and threw it into the air.

It wriggled shapelessly for a second, before spreading into an image of Lily, looking unmistakably dead, her eyes blank and staring.

"Wow, I understand why you thought I was dead!" said Lily, smiling faintly as the image dissolved.

"But, you obviously are dead!" spluttered Professor McGonagall, "Albus, this cannot be her! This is not Lily Potter, it can’t be!"

"Unbelievable though it may be, it is definitely her, I see it when I look in Harry’s eyes." He said calmly.

"Thank you Albus! I knew you’d know!" cried Lily, smiling at him.

Harry was looking frozen, his mouth hung open and silent tears ran down his face. Lily looked down at him, then said,

"So lets get some things straight. Where is Harry living now?"

"Currently with your sister Petunia, her husband and their son Dudley." Said Dumbledore.

Lily frowned.

"Why isn’t he with Sirius? He’s his Godfather, you remember Albus?"

"Sirius passed away last year, I’m sorry Lily."

Harry clenched his fist. James’s sobs filled Lily’s head, clouding her thoughts. She put her head in her hands.

"Has he ever lived with Sirius?" she asked.

"No."

"WHY NOT?!" she yelled, taking everyone by surprise, "I KNOW SIRIUS WASN’T SENSIBLE, BUT BETTER HIM THAN THAT b*tch AND HER HUSBAND!"

"Lily, calm down, please. Sirius has been in Azkaban since the day after you and James were killed. He

only got out three years ago."

"What?! Why the hell was he in Azkaban?"

"Well, you know everyone still thought that Sirius was you Secret Keeper, not Pettigrew? Everyone believed that he must have betrayed you. The day after your death, he went after Pettigrew, knowing what he had done. Sirius found him but Pettigrew yelled for the whole street to hear that Sirius had betrayed you and James, blew apart the street with his wand behind his back, transformed and ran down into the sewers. He killed 12 muggles that day. The Ministry arrived and arrested Sirius."

Lily was shocked.

"That little bastard," she breathed, "I swear if I ever get my hand on Peter…. I told James I didn’t trust him, but would he listen? No, to hell he would!!"

"Lily we understand your upset but-"

"Is Harry going to live with me?" Lily cut in sharply.

"There may be some problems-"

"What?! I’m his mother! Do you even know how much I’ve missed him?! I’ve missed almost his entire childhood, I want him back!!"

Harry suddenly spoke up, "Mum, I’m going to live with you whether they like it or not," he turned to Dumbledore, "You said you put your trust in my mother’s blood. What’s closer to that than her?!"

[PuppyDawg]

Very good question Harry, very good.